Today being 1st of the month, when I change the calendar over I always write down what Day she is on, ie the number of seizure-free days since her last Grand Mal. And this morning I wrote down Day 67. At just gone 6pm it went back to Day Zero and she had a major Grand Mal seizure in the kitchen while I was preparing her first meal [she had not asked for it earlier and we had had a nap following her 3pm meds]. SIGH She had been doing so well, especially after the last terrible period of episodes - and even though I knew it could not last, it was Oh sh!t - here we go again. I am just praying it was a one off but somehow I do not think so as even at the best of times she will have more than just the one. And her seizures are so violent and so long lasting - no such thing as a brief seizure for her, she has to go the whole hog and have 20 minute seizures and then hours, if not days, of diabolical post-ictal behaviour. Poor Pereg - my poor girl. What did she do to deserve this Monster called epilepsy?
Oh no. I'm so sorry. It must be utterly exhausting for both of you. I hope that in spite of your fears it does turn out to be a one off. But whatever - you will both cope as you always do. Thinking of the two of you.
So very sorry for both you and Pereg. I will continue to pray for you both. Neither one of you deserves this horrid thing called epilepsy. I always say, "everything happens for a reason." I don't know what the reason behind this is but I do feel that Pereg wouldn't be here if not for you. You both must be special. Hang in there my friend!
Oh no do hope poor Pereg is ok , my heart goes out to you Malka as its horrible watching someone close to you having seizures, hope you & Pereg have a peaceful night.
Or it will have been a one-off or it will not and there is absolutely nothing I can do except sit it out and wait. I coped with her seizure, I coped with wiping her down after she finally came out of it, I even managed to sort of mop the kitchen floor from the white sticky goo that spews out of her mouth and the pee that spews out of the other end - all the time remembering the permanent scarring and damage to my eye following those horrific falls I had when she was seizing so badly in June. And now I cannot stop crying because that bdooly Monster has hit my beloved Pereg again, and I know that he will never go away. I cry for her as this is her life and she will never be free from the Monster. But I am not crying for me because Pereg is my girl and I love her, epileptic or not. But deep inside my heart breaks.
So sorry Malka and Pereg. Especially after she has had such a long run without a siezure this time. I hope you have a quiet night, without any follow on. I'm sending love to you both.
I'm so sorry to hear Pereg has had another attack especially as she seemed to be doing so well. Thinking of you both and praying this will be a "one off". Hugs from us all.
I do not know if I posted these rambling thoughts on Breedia or not, but I am posting them again - more for me than for everyone here, so please humour me in posting them again. *** What if I had chosen a different pup And not my Pereg? Would he or she Well had to be a she Have turned out Somehow Differently Maybe not epi But she would not have been The Pereg that I know And love And give thanks each dayTo G-d above For giving me the joy And pleasure My epi Pereg Does Forever ***
I look at her And play with her And she is just A normal dog But when the Monster Comes and then I see her thrashing It breaks my heart Because there's nothing That I can do To stop the Monster 'Till his work is done And my girl is back When he has gone All I can do Is comfort her And tell her that I love her so And it does not matter Not in my heart That she is epi Because it is part Of who she is And what she is And I love her so Whatever is For me she's mine My beloved girl And epi is just A little part Of my Pereg So deep In my heart Because our epis Are special gifts That we must treasure No buts or ifs Maybe they chose us I don't know But my special girl Gives me a glow When she looks at me And then I know Without her life Would be nothing And so Without her I would have lost So much Such love and oh Such trust And life would not Have been the same Without my Pereg Epi is her name
24 hours and 15 minutes later and Grand Mal #2 hit - hard. She was doing her road-kill imitation watching me do something at the sink - and them The Monster hit her and she flew up in the air and landed on her side in a full-blown Grand Mal seizure. No warning, nothing. But then there never is. No point in swearing is there. My girl seizes when those crossed wires in her brain short-circuit, and there is booger all that can be done about it. But if I have to go without sleep for another night - well I do not know what I will do. Well I do really - I will cope, as I always do. But sometimes I wonder how.
So sorry to hear Pereg as had another seizure, no words I can offer you will comfort you at this time Malka, so I shall pray that Pereg & you do get some "normal" sleep tonight xxx
There are no words Malka, but I'm sure everyone on here is thinking of you and sending healing thoughts. Easy to say, but try and get a little rest.
Sorry but suck it up and drive on, just think if you a truly loving and caring pet owner had not picked her. You love and care for her threw it all and must be truly commended for it, in todays generation of "Throw it away and buy a new one". The vast majority would have sent her to the pound or had her euthanized, while you care and love her threw it all. You give her the years many would not, so destiny and chance brought together, a good and loving pair. God bless and the best of wishes to you both.
How are you both this morning? Hope you managed to get some sleep last night. Thinking of you .... Lots of hugs XXX
Pereg is fine this morning although I am not sure if this episode is over. She kept waking me during the night wanting to go out but as she drinks and drinks and drinks after a seizure it is expected, but I gave up on sleep around 3am and ended up chatting on the telephone with an epi owner in Michigan! The problem with Pereg's epilepsy is that she has very strong, violent and long-lasting seizures, and takes hours to get over them, but she has, so far, gotten over them B"H and it takes more out of me than it does out of her. If you know what I mean. And it is worse when she has gone a few weeks seizure-free because I sort of get blind-sided when it hits again as I almost forget that she is epi. Pereg, of course, has no idea that there is anything wrong with her as she has no knowledge of having had a seizure, or how she is during the post-ictal period. So - or it is over or it is not and she will have another GM some time today. Ze mah yesh - that is how it is. And I love her so I will cope. But oh for some sleep.
