Yesterday was the 5th year since you left me. You went to sleep cuddled up to me, and somehow woke me at 4.30am - I put my hand underneath you - you were on top of the duvet. And you did not move. I put my hand on top of you and I could not feel your heartbeat or feel you breathing. But you were soft and warm but - but.. So I got a torch from under my pillow and shone it on your beautiful face, and as I did I saw the light of love go from your beautiful eyes. You woke me to say goodbye - because you were not old, you were not ill, it was just your time to go. And you could not let go of life until you knew I was with you. Miss you Little One. Sleep sweetly and wait for us.
That is so moving Malka. I like to think that our passed special dogs still exist in spirit for as long as we continue to cherish them.
I miss her. She would sleep on my lap during the day, unlike Pereg who is rather too big to be a lap dog. Small, fluffy, and either she was a wee bit thick or she was very clever and took me for granted and for an idjit. But I miss her. So very different to Pereg, who really is something else. So very different . But that photo of Lexi - the first one I ever took of her as I did not have a camera before them - it is still the picture on my desktop and will always be. I look at those eyes and no matter how many years go by, Lexi was, and will always be, my Little One. I loved all my Griffons in the past - remember them all, but Lexi was the pup I never thought I would ever be able to have - and then Pereg turned up because I knew Lexi would not live forever. And they were good together and Lexi was not ill or that old - I just did not expect her to just die when she did. Just 11 months after Pereg came home. She was such a soft fluffy cuddle pup, and yet so aloof when she did not want a cuddle. And much as I am grateful that she was not old, ill, or suffering, I am grateful that she woke me to say goodbye. But oh how I miss her.
Lexi was just Lexi. A black and tan little fluffy mutt whose dog mother was an outside dog producing litter after litter - and except for Lexi - who knew whatever happened to all the other pups? They actually did not know whose puppy she was as they had kept a female from one litter and both gave birth at the same time. She was just a sweet little girl who was an escape artist and would go run run if she ever had the chance - but she was good, she was sweet - she was just Lexi. And I loved her and I miss her.
